laszlo/finvarra || 28
sagittarius ⊙ libra ☾ cancer ↑ || white
genderfluid + bisexual

For me, otherkinity is a spiritual experience where my kintypes are, via a combination of reincarnation and the multiverse theory, my past lives. As such, it is something that is personally important to me, although it is not something I openly talk about very often. I'm fine with doubles
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fictionkin

otherkin
faerie

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past life s/os
for clarification a character being listed here does not necessarily mean i currently have romantic feelings for them, it just means that in one life i had those feelings at one point and as a result these characters are still very important to me.
homestuck characters are also listed with the symbol of the corresponding quadrant we were in; since all quadrants were considered romance all quadrantmates are listed here

past life family

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fictionkin
miles (aa) • renju (aitsf) • soma (castlevania) • cielo (dds) • keel (ec) • lich (ec) • mikulia (ec)
finn (fe) • eliwood (fe) • janaff (fe) • inigo (fe) • takumi (fe) • berkut (fe) • sylvain (fe) • plumeria (fe) alfred (fe) • oikawa (hq) • garry (ib) • star platinum (jjba) • diego (jjba) • terra (kh) • isa (kh)
lauriam (kh) • ghirahim (loz) • zelda (loz: botw) • wolff (ln) • holt (mh) • akechi (p5) • grimsley (pkmn)
meis (promare) • donna (re8) • twilight (sxf) • kiyoteru (vocaloid) • flora (winx) • phi (ze)

my loves
phoenix (aa) • pewter (aitsf) • gale (dds) • eater (ec) • mikina (ec)
hector (fe) • ninian (fe) • odin (fe) • hinata (fe) • oboro (fe) • felix (fe) • diamant (fe)
aqua (kh) • lea (kh) • link (loz: botw) • vergia (ln) • burgh (pkmn)
gueira (promare) • yor (sxf) • akito (vocaloid) • helia (winx)

family
trucy (aa) • mizuki (aitsf) • yukina (ec) • shaw (ec) • aile (ec)
leif (fe) • nanna (fe) • roy (fe) • lilina (fe) • soleil (fe) • ophelia (fe) • hisame (fe) • kiragi (fe)
ib (ib) • mary (ib) • jotaro (jjba) • ven (kh) • xion (kh) • roxas (kh) • strelitzia (kh)
angie (re8) • anya (sxf) • yuki (vocaloid) • chatta (winx) • quark (ze)

inigo/laslow (fe) memories
Pre-Awakening
- i was a bisexual trans guy
- my dad was lon'qu
- in my original timeline, my dad became west khan of regna ferox after basilio died
- i was born in regna ferox and raised there in my early childhood; once the risen became more and more prevalent we moved closer to ylisse
- i picked my name because when i was little i asked my mother what she would have named me if i was a boy
- (the name laslow is actually what i would have chosen for myself if i didn't use my name to honor my parents, lol)Awakening
- i think some of the pairings of my timeline were: Olivia+Lon'qu, Chrom+Sumia, Lissa+Maribelle, Cordelia+Frederick, Cherche+Gaius, Panne+Henry, Sully+Miriel
- i think our robin was frobin. i dont remember if she married anyone.
- i believe she sacrificed herself to stop grima for good; owain, severa and i left before we found out she was okFates
- revelation route
- some time after arriving in nohr, odin and i began a relationship. we tried to keep it a secret (we weren't sure about how people would feel about us together, plus we worried it would lead to our cover being blown); niles caught us together once, but didnt rat us out. he teased us relentlessly about it though.
- we eventually got married; odin tried to propose first, but he got all choked up and just couldnt spit out the words, so, i proposed to him (though he insisted we had to "redo it," lol)
- we had soleil and ophelia, with soleil being about a year older.
- both girls had their "default" hair colours, so soleil's was pink and ophelia's blonde.
- both girls got the brand - for soleil it was in her right eye, and ophelia's was on her right forearm, just below the inside of her elbow. soleil's surfaced when she was about 5-6, ophelia's when she was about 15
- we sometimes called ophelia "fifi;" i believe this was started by a very young soleil
- i would teach both girls to dance, when i could. contrary to what Game Canon says about soleil, they were both very good!
- odin. wasnt as... gifted, so naturally it was all the more fun to drag him into dancing with us
- i once told odin he could only sit in on my dance practice if he agreed to be my partner when i required it. i said something like, "I'll teach you to dance yet or die trying," to which he responded "The second option may be more likely than you think!" nerd.
- ophelia (at like, age 4) once asked odin if i was also a "chosen one" like him, and the Absolute NERDLORD said "Of course! He is the chosen one... of my heart" and im fucken GAY
- at some point selena married keaton and they had velouria; velouria was older than soleil
- one time, a little bit after velouria was born, selena and i were on patrol together and i was feeling ill and having Symptoms and selena made an off-hand comment of "jeez this is just like when i was pregnant with velouria" and then we both got hit with Realization and that was how i figured out i was pregnant with soleil
Post Fates
- after the war was over, selena, odin and i sat down with our families and told them that the three of us had to leave and that we couldn't come back. we told them that if they wanted to stay in nohr with all their friends we completely understood, but they were free to come home with us if they wanted to. It was... a difficult conversation, for the three of us at least, but keaton and the girls all insisted that they wanted to come with us. So, the seven of us went back to ylisse.
- (we didnt say goodbye to anyone else in person; too painful, and we didnt want people to try and convince us to stay)
- technically we went back to valm, and then sailed to ferox where we met with my parents, basilio, and flavia, and THEN crossed the border into ylisse to see owain and severas parents.
- i think the first person we met when we got back was basilio. he made extra extra sure i knew that my parents had been absolutely worried sick about me, how could i do that, running off without a word, "where the FUCK did you go inigo," etc etc
- (he gave owain and severa a bit of grief as well, but not as much as me since he wasnt as close to their parents)
- i think, after we'd visited everyone's families, owain, the girls and i wound up settling in ferox.
potential separate timeline
- i honestly can't figure out if this is a separate tl or not. some vibes and echoes of memories make me think it is, others make me think it isn't, so SHRUG EMOJI
- had a relationship with saizo
- soleil and asugi were twins, both with pink hair. soleil was older
- (fun fact, if you're thinking "doesnt soleil and asugi being twins pretty much confirm its a different tl since as odin's daughter she had the brand and is thus of the exalted bloodline?", it is actually possible for fraternal twins to have different fathers)
-things started... rocky... with saizo. pretty much the same as the in-game c support, but in his digging into me and my past he found out i was trans, except i dont think saizo knew what trans people were, so he - to my face - accused me of being a woman and lying to everyone
- and that was the only time i remember being so genuinely, truly angry with someone and i told him to never speak to me again and pretty much refused to be anywhere in the same vicinity as him unless xander needed me to be
- because getting so angry i have to leave whenever a certain person so much as walks in the room was uhhhh pretty out of character for me, selena pieced together that SOMETHING happened and decided to confront saizo about it
- i saw them basically snarling at each other and had to drag selena away; i appreciated how much she cared and that she was willing to defend me, but... i just. didn't want to think about it. or him. or have my friends waste their time on him.
- it seemed selena did some good though, because he came to apologize to me about it, and admitted ignorance and asked if i would explain it to him
- since he was definitely being sincere (a proud man like that does not easily admit to being in the wrong or ignorant), i agreed
- one thing he got kind of hung up on was me admitting that i never told lord xander, and i pointed out that it was unlikely any other retainers went to their liege to inform them - completely unprompted - about their reproductive systems.
- "assumptions other people make about my body are not on me and are not my responsibility to correct"
- and then we just.. kept spending time together.
- i think he confessed his feelings first... after he suddenly started avoiding me. thinking on it, i thiiink his confession included mentioning my pre-existing romance with odin, so... one timeline? i think?
- quite a ways into our relationship, i think when we were getting ready to go to sleep, i kinda just... broke. and confessed quite a good deal of my past to him.
- this lead to us discussing what would happen after the war... he said he wanted to bring me to his home in isagato, and i had always just figured i'd go back to ylisse, but that was likely going to be a one-way trip, and. well. saizo had a lot of ties and responsibilities in hoshido, of course. so i didn't really feel like i could even ask him to leave all that behind to go to a world he didn't belong to.
- skipping ahead quite a bit, while asugi was growing up i would usually sneak him candies and snacks
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cielo (dds) memories
- after emotions awoke in the junkyard, i'd get really restless at night; a lot of the time it would get to the point where i'd wind up going and sleeping with another member of the embryon; most often argilla or gale - argilla because she was just a calming presence, and gale because, quite frankly, i had a huge as fuck crush on him
- i always liked hanging around gale. i really loved watching him calibrate and fiddle with his bishop implants, it was just... nice.
- sera was like a little sister to me!! i always loved talking with her, because she never really talked about the war and fighting going on in the junkyard.

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phi (ze) memories
Zero Time Dilemma timeline
- the way i got information from other timelines was different than how the game portray sigma getting it - whereas sigma seemed to get visual flashes and like... epiphanies, the info just appeared in my mind as if it was something i'd always known. like when i first met sigma, and i just knew his name. sometimes i wouldn't even realize i had information i had no way of knowing, i just... knew it.
- the only people i were particularly close to were sigma and diana. i gave sigma lots of shit, but, they really were the ones i was most concerned about - as long as they were ok i didnt care what happened to me.
- i... remember the power outage during the decision game, when mira was loose. i remember finding sigma dead, and then.. mira got me too.
- after we escaped, i don't think carlos shot delta. he should've. fuck delta.
Virtue's Last Reward Luna END timeline
- after sigma basically forced me to escape with quark, quark woke up in the elevator and i got to have a very un-fun talk with him. i don't think i really had the heart to outright tell him tenmyouji died... but quark was a smart enough kid. he figured it out.
- we didn't really have anywhere else to go... and since we escaped the game and quark didn't have to worry about the consequences anymore, he was able to answer my questions and where (and when) the hell we were. so i tried to process all of THAT on the way back to earth.
- and getting back to earth... all we really could do was keep doing the same work that tenmyouji and quark had been doing before. so. thats what we did.

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grimsley (pkmn) memories
*disclaimer: this life was full of some Bad Shit (ie drug, alcohol, and gambling addictions, horrid birth family) so while i don't plan to go into too much detail please just be aware that these will get mentioned if any of them make you uncomfortable
- my family lived in castelia city before we lost all our money
- my family consisted of: me, my mother, my older sister, and my father who was never around due to work (and presumably drinking/general whoring around)
- no one in my family really got along - we. really didnt like each other at all, lmao. my mom and sister disliked me more than they disliked each other, so theyd gang up on me when i was around
- we lost our money when i was a teenager (17-18ish maybe?), i think due to some scandal about my father that wound up with him in jail
- i got kicked out. my mom and sister stuck together i think, but i caught some blame somehow for us losing our money?
- idk maybe they blamed it on my "unsavory lifestyle" (ie barhopping, general whoring around, typical Rich Bitch Party Boy stuff)
- anyway. i had absolutely nothing besides my dear purrloin, whose name was Precious. she would eventually grow up to be the liepard i used on my team in the e4, but initially she was just a pet and not a battler.
- she forced her way into the role of my protector, because i guess she'd be damned if she let her stupid alcohol- and gambling-addicted master get hurt
- (i love her so much)
- i dont remember how, but i eventually wound up meeting arti and elesa, and they graciously took my dumb ass in
- (yes his name was arti; i think burgh was actually his last name lmao)
- we became a weird little trio, with me and arti having this weird Romantic Tension(tm) and me and elesa bitching at and insulting each other constantly
- they were the ones to get me into Professional Battling, and thus were the ones to set me on the path to becoming a member of the e4. if not for them, i likely wouldve ended up dead in a gutter somewhere in the bad part of castelia
- arti and i did end up getting together, though i only think after i joined the league...
- part of the requirements for being and elite four member was to take on the entire league with a monotype team
- i got into the e4 when i was around 25 i think?
- the rest of the e4 was!! my family. a Real family, like, supportive and loving and they looked out for my stupid ass and helped me with the whole. gambling addiction thing.
- (arti and elesa also helped with my addictions, and i think id kicked alcohol and drugs by the time i got to the e4, but gambling... was harder for me)
- they were... protective. marshall would invite himself along whenever i went to the city; he'd insist he just wanted to get out too, but the guy was a horrible liar and was very clearly trying to make sure i didnt do something id regret or get my ass kicked. i was very thankful bc lbr i wouldve done something regrettable and/or gotten my ass kicked.
- caitlin and shauntal didnt really come along usually (though shauntal did sometimes tag along for new novels or.. pens... or whatever novelists buy)
- caitlin was telepathic as well as telekinetic. out loud she was soft spoken and proper but she was a snarky lady when she spoke directly into your brain!
- all together, the lot of us were just a clan of richass introverts. we didnt really like being in public or dealing with people, and overall being a member of the e4 was good for people like us.
- the league worked a bit differently than whats shown in the games; the gym leaders were "open" year round, but there was only maybe a few months trainers could challenge us at the League. besides our on-season and any trips we made out to towns, the public didnt see us very much.
- as for alola! arti and i took a vacation to alola because i still had some debts and was hella stressed, so marshall shauntal and caitlin were like "please take your boyfriend and go relax" so i did just that
- i looked like hell because i stopped bothering with my appearance bc people in alola didnt know me. in unova i was very Very vain and concerned with my appearance, and in alola... no one knew me, so not so much!
- while in alola i... thought about a lot of things. about my life. and. i wound up proposing
- (it was completely off the cuff i had NOT planned on it it just kinda.. happened)
- so... we got married in alola! it was just a very small ceremony, yknow, on account of all our friends being in a different region, but god it was just. so. nice. i love him
- i also considered retiring from battling, but ultimately decided to continue
- also, for timeline, i was around 29 when BW happened, 31 in B2W2, and 33 in SUMO.

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eliwood (fe) memories
- Follows very closely to source
- I married Ninian and we had Roy! (his full name being Elroy because family tradition and all that)
- Lyn and Florina eloped and lived in Sacae, and Rebecca married Lowen and had Wolt
- Hector and I were kind of secret-married?
- Okay so, after Ninian and I had been married a few months, she talked to me about my feelings for Hector - that I had never noticed, but she apparently had - and she told me she thought I should tell him, because I'd feel better if I did
- that threw me for a loop and I was just like "but I'm in love with you?? you're my wife??" and she told me that "you can love more than one person" and after a lot of talking and assurances I agreed to tell him
- so... I told him. and it was kind of an awkward conversation, confessing that my wife figured out that I had feelings for my best friend since forever and encouraged me to tell him, but overall it worked out, because he had figured out (WAY before I did) that he'd had feelings for me too
- but of course, I was already married (to a wife whom I loved and still love very very much), and we were both men and marquesses and overall a relationship.. would've been asking for trouble and scandals
- So we dated in secret! Obviously.
- I cannot stress enough that I was just as in love with Hector as I was with Ninian, and I loved Ninian just as much as I loved Hector
- Ninian and I had a ring made that matched our wedding rings, and we gave it to Hector
- (He couldn't wear it as a wedding ring of course, but... still)
- As Nils said, Ninian... didn't. last very long in our world - she lived until Roy was maybe 6 or 7, and then passed
- She gave Roy her dragonstone before she died
- I was... hollow, I guess, for a long while after that. Getting work done was.. hard.
- A lot of my time was spent consoling Roy
- (Kind of funny, in a way, that I feel like after Zephiel's war a lot of Roy's time was spent consoling me about Hector)

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keel (ec) memories
- i have absolutely no recollection of escaping seths Super Special Clone Jail lmao
- met and got hired by kyle to investigate his art tutors death etc etc etc we became friends
- mikina! i met when i got hired to steal... something or other from the sfarz manor
- she caught me stealing, and then distracted her family so i could get away
- me to kyle the next time i saw him: IDK MAN i just cant stop thinking about her i just wanna be near her all the time and make her laugh and smile and
kyle: [that one spongebob "you like krabby patties dont you squidward" face] you liiike h--
me: shut the hell up

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mikulia (ec) memories
- my life was very much like portrayed in canon, up to a certain point
- the family and village i grew up with were all horrible to me and treated me as a nuisance, so when venomania came along... i went with him, no hypnotism required or involved
- while a part of the harem, lukana was like a sister to me! she was always nice to me and when i was feeling down she'd pet my hair and sing to me
- after karchess killed venomania, i fled to a nearby town, had my baby, and named him sati
- (i had remembered hearing gumina calling venomania that, and i dont think i ever quite caught on that he was. a bad person, so...)
- the people of that village weren't.. welcoming. to a single mother that came from the harem, so i left that village and wound up in lasaland, where i wound up at the brothel and was forced by the owner to give sati up :(
- unlike in source canon, i lived and made my way to calgaround eventually, where i met gilbert and we fell in love and got married
- before we actually got married i confessed to him in private about the harem and the brothel and all that and he said none of that would affect how he felt about me and he loved me
- when the brothel owner came to ruin my life or whatever, the first person he met in town was actually gilbert, and idrk what happened on account of not being there but... gilbert was the one who killed him
- he told me about it, i think the owner attacked him or something? idk
- anyway! 3 years later sati came to town looking for me!! i met him in the streets and broke down crying because my son!! had found me!! i was so happy and guilty and just had all these Emotions so i was just in the street hugging my son and sobbing my eyes out
- gilbert and i adopted him and the calgaround murders mentioned in deadly sins of evil never happened

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isa (kingdom hearts) memories
cw brief alcoholism mention, human experimentation
- lea and i had been friends since like forever
- my home life was. not great. my only family was my father who was an alcoholic
- so i pretty much avoided going home as much as possible
- you know reno from final fantasy??? he was leas older brother (he was around 10 years older than us i think?)
- i dont think their parents were around
- i was Big Gay for lea but i didnt want to rock the boat of our friendship so i never told him
- i have no memory of subject x; as far as i can tell us sneaking into the castle was 100% just because we were dumbass teenagers
- we also. never apprenticed for ansem. we became nobodies cause the last time we were caught sneaking in i guess they decided they were sick of it so uhh. human expirmentation.
- thats where my berserk form came from! being experimented on by xehanort and pals. also where the scar came from.
- i have like no memories of actually being saix, but given i remember post-kh3 shit (including Overwhelming Guilt for shit i did as saix) becoming saix. did happen. i just dont remember any of it
- i will come back and add more post-kh3 shit later but i am Tired; short version me and lea were Big Gay and lived in twilight town w roxas and xion

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zelda (botw) memories
- link was a trans woman
- selectively mute; she used sign language to communicate
- we were very close, both before and after the 100 year sleep!
- after the calamity was defeated, we would travel around hyrule and help people rebuild and expand since the monsters were gone
- we spent a lot of time in gerudo town
- trans women were of COURSE allowed in gerudo town and anyone that says otherwise is Wrong (or has a different canon) (but nintendo is wrong)
- it was specifically men that were not allowed in gerudo town; nonbinary people and races with no concept of gender (such as gorons) were allowed in as well
- (speaking of gorons, they used primarily masculine-coded language because the hylians that they learned the common hylian language from made assumptions and they just rolled with it; they would call anyone "brother" regardless of gender unless you specifically asked them not to)
- gerudo culture was also not as focused on finding a husband as it was portrayed in-game? many gerudo women would actually just seek out a donor and raise their children as a single mother
- if a gerudo figured out that they were actually a man, the community would come together and donate resources so he could live outside gerudo town; he would still be as beloved as he had been when people believed him to be a woman, but he was expected to leave gerudo town
- (urbosa taught me a lot about gerudo culture and their relationship with gender lol)
- link! loved! her! gerudo clothes! she wore them a Lot
- honestly she knew quite a few of the shopkeepers and locals of gerudo town personally, so its probably safe to say she spent a lot of time there before the calamity was defeated as well
- ganondorf existed as well; he was a dear friend of ours
- also we called him either ganondorf or shortened it to gan - the name ganon had. bad connotations.
- he... figured it would be his fate to be the harbinger of the calamity; ever since the first ganondorf, many people believed the man born to the gerudo was a bad omen and destined to bring hardship to all of hyrule
- (as a result, my father very much did not approve of me being friends with ganondorf. i did not care because i knew gan was a good and trustworthy man, and that we are more than what the goddesses say we are meant to be)
- i believe it was astor who was the one who caused ganondorf to be overtaken by the calamity - he said ganondorf was "a vessel for malice" or something to that effect
- ganondorf! was! a! good! man!
- while i was fighting the calamity during the 100 years link recovered, i could tell that gan was fighting it from the inside... i truly think if not for him i would not have been able to keep the calamity sealed for so long.
- after the calamity was defeated, we managed to revive ganondorf. he accompanied with us travelling across hyrule because he felt he needed to atone and help rebuild hyrule
- i wound up adopting that dog that daruk rescued in the champions ballad dlc; his name was percival and he was a good dog

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goro akechi (persona 5) memories
- i am from my own gotdamn au (p5 suou au)
- basic rundown: akinari (joker) was the son of jun&tatsuya from persona 2, in between okumura and saes palaces the thieves(+me) went to sumaru city and jun had a palace and that was a Whole Big Thing
- anyway. loki was my initial persona. robin hood awoke when i met joker; up until that point i had no idea i could have more than one persona
- i actually think... the. fight. between me and the thieves actually happened in jun's palace instead of shidos....?
- and. after they beat me. akinari was like "u should join us" and i was still mad about everything in my life but i still was (very hesitantly) like "...ok"
- so from there on out i was In On Shit, but also i couldnt, yknow, get shido suspicious, and the plan to get joker arrested had already been made so it wasnt something i could back out of
- so that... joker still got arrested. my b. ... and i was still supposed to assassinate him which was not great. but this time i was In on the whole "akechi actually shoots Cognitive Joker" plan and that went off without a hitch, most everyone (including shido!) thought the leader of the phantom thieves was dead.... hooray.
- from there i just kinda.. played double agent. getting as much info on shidos plans as i could.
- shidos palace sure ws something that happened. the whole thing just. made me sick. god i hate shido. fucker
- there was that whole Thing with Me vs Cognitive Me; i killed him and he shot me in the shoulder and i triED to do that self-sacrificing shit but actually. after i fukin passed out or w/e from being shot joker and co. carried me out of the palace
- and i was in the hospital for presumably the entire endgame, bc i dont remember shit about yaldobaoth or what the fuck ever
- the thieves. also did not turn me in for. being shidos personal assassin.
- joker told me id suffered enough
- and after i was discharged from the hospital i quit being a detective cause there really wasnt... a point
- i think at least for a little bit (surgery recovery maybe?) i stayed w joker and his family for a while
- at one point joker made pancakes and i just. lost my shit laughing and called him a jackass

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kiyoteru (vocaloid) memories
- im like 95% certain this life was a direct reincarnation of keel from evillious chronicles, making this universe the 4th period
- the ice mountain book was p much canon, though miki was also a member - she was our female vocalist. i think she was a relative of akito's
- her legs were prosthetics and she was really into robots so she had them made to make her look like a android
- natsuki was trans and was willing to throw down all the time
- despite being raised by a priest i wasnt religious myself
- me and akito started dating in high school, and we eventually got married
- akito: ok but who takes whos name
me: babe it doesnt really matter
akito: ARE WE FIRE OR ARE WE ICE, TERU
- (he eventually decided to take mine so the bands name would make sense)
- i dont exactly remember how it happened, but we wound up adopting yuki? it was after the year she was my student, but... i dont exactly remember how it came to be that she needed new guardians. i think her parents died in a car crash...?
- i also dont remember exactly how it was we met the other "vocaloids;" i think they were more akin to idols. we did meet and collab a lot though
- speaking of the other vocaloids, rin and len, in that universe, are the ones that (at least initially) wrote the evillious chronicles. also they had an older sister named bufuko. pretty certain they were the reincarnations of rilliane, allen, and behemo
- tbh i get the feeling that those three retained their memories of the third period. i. did not.

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sylvain (fire emblem) memories
- i Feel like im blue lions route but ive only finished golden deer as of writing this so im not ready to lock that in as a certainty yet
- i didnt. handle. miklan as well as i did in source. i tried to not let his jealousy get to me but being raised alongside such negativity... i pretty much felt guilty for existing for most of my life lmao
- it got so bad that when class was sent to stop miklan and his bandits i just kinda.. gave up in the middle of the fight. i was going up against miklan himself and. i dunno. everything was just too much; he got to me. i felt so bad for ruining his life just by being born - even though i knew logically none of that what happened to him was my fault - that i just wanted... something to go right for him... even if that something was. killing his little brother.
- felix saw me being a dumbass and was the one to strike miklan down. after... everything. he yelled at me pretty good.
- and then for like a week or two after that i stayed holed up in my room for the most part. didnt want to deal with people being like "ooohhhh sylvain poor sylvain are you ok?? how are you doing???" cause like. i just made my best friend murder my brother leave me alone
- felix made ashe pick the lock to my door during this time to yell at me in his felix way of showing how worried he was
- at some point dorothea transferred to our class. she's the only one i remember transferring
- she obviously did not care for my company. until post timeskip when i finally accepted Hey maybe i don't actually like girls as much as i thought i should and Hey maybe i like men a little more than i thought i did. then she found me tolerable to be around (bc i was not hitting on her constantly)
- once i accepted Ah jeez. im gay. i then went Ah fuck. ive been in love with felix this whole time.
- wound up confessing in the most fanfic-y way possible; took a blow in battle meant for him, got Super injured, while i was healing he was like "what the FUCK why did you DO that i wouldve been FINE-" and i was just like "IM IN LOVE WITH YOU OK!!!"
- like. the night before the final battle. we went to dimitri and were like HEY. officiate our wedding. right now. we're probably gonna die tomorrow so no time like the present
- and then we won! and then i had to go home to my dad who was inevitable gonna be like Ok sylvain. find a wife and have crest babies
- felix actually came with me to break the news of Hey we're married. we were having dinner with my family and my father was droning on about whatever the fuck and it was clearly pissing felix off so he just at one point spoke up and said "Margrave Gautier," and my dad turned to look at him and felix looked him dead in the eye and said, "I fucked your son" and just got up and LEFT
- this was the most hilarious thing id ever seen in my entire life and i tried to follow felix out but my dad caught up to me and it turned into a huge fight, which resulted in my dad straight up slapping me
-i very specifically remember thinking "wow.. ive dated like 18 girls who slap harder than that." i did not voice this thought
-that was kind of the breaking point for me though. i just went You know what. im done. thats it. im disowning myself from this family. take your title and shove it up your ass. if you wanted an heir maybe you shouldve treated your kids like actual fucking people.
- so felix and i merged our territories and instead of being margrave gautier i was duke fraldarius's husband. much sexier.
- we also adopted a little girl who had been orphaned by the war! she did not have a crest, she was the sweetest angel to ever live and i love her so much and also my father was not allowed to meet her ever bc she did not need that kind of negativity in her life
- one time she slept in our room bc we spoiled her way too much and i had one of the classic miklan nightmares and woke up crying, which made her worry, and then she asked why people have bad dreams so i tried to explain that your brain wants things to think of while you sleep! and sometimes it thinks of sad things; a lot of the time mine thinks of sad things from when i was a kid. and she just said "WELL then we will have to make so many happy memories together so your sleepy brain only thinks of happy things while you dream!" and i adore her so much.

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berkut (fire emblem) memories
- My father died when I was 5, my mother when I was 10
- I knew my uncle had had a wife, but she died when I was too young to remember her
- I don’t think my mother was... content. to be the wife of the emperor's younger brother.
- As Rudolf had no children of his own (that we knew of), I was heir to the throne, and my mother would always say things like, "you will be emperor, you will not be nothing" and I, a child at the time, was like "ah ok if i am not emperor my life is worthless and means nothing" and internalized that for the rest of my life
- Rinea's parents were not pleasant people and I took great pleasure in throwing my status around to make them uncomfortable; I especially liked implying that since Rinea was to be my wife, she was automatically of higher status than her parents and thus they needed to show her the same respect they showed the rest of the imperial family.
- (Her parents caused her distress so often that they were not allowed to come to the wedding when we finally did get married)
- I did Not sacrifice Rinea to Duma, what the fuck canon Berkut
- what happened for me was blah blah Alm was the True Rigelian Heir™ and so my life no longer held meaning so I wallowed in self-pity in the tower of Duma and Duma tried to tempt me to use his power
- And then my head was filled with visions of just how strong I could be with his power – strong enough to beat Alm, to be the emperor of not just Rigel but all of Valentia…
- There were… whispers. In my mind, of what it would cost, but the power seemed to be at my fingertips and it seemed so intoxicating that I don’t know that it even registered
- And that’s when Rinea showed up
- Seeing her, as herself, snapped me out of whatever the fuck kind of trance I was in and I was horrified, because up to that point I had felt like. I would’ve done anything for what Duma was offering.
- All I could do was hold her and just.. apologize.
- And so we just. Sat there. In the temple, just holding each other.
- I told her that there was nothing in the world, no title no status no power, that would ever be more important to me than her happiness
- And she in turn assured me that she loved me, not my bloodline or title, but just me as a person
- I don’t know quite how long we sat there for. Alm and his group showed up at one point. I told him to just go and do whatever it was he needed to. I wasn’t going to fight him anymore, especially not somewhere where it could endanger Rinea.
- Presumably once they finished fighting Duma, Alm’s group came back. He gave me a similar speech to what’s in game (“we’re family, the people of Rigel love you, let’s work together”) except obviously. I wasn’t completely insane with Duma’s power.
- I was. Reluctant. But in the end I wound up agreeing to work with him. Gods know I didn’t want to help him with anything, especially not advise him on how to be the emperor that I had been told (lied) my entire life that I was meant to be, but. Proud as I was, I had to recognize him as Rudolf’s son, even if it infuriated me.
- (Also, while it really isn’t shown in-game, I truly did care for the people of Rigel and gods know I wouldn’t want to leave them in the hands of him and his Zofian queen)
- So. I pretty much wound up being an advisor and general.
- I also took on the responsibility of teaching Alm how to be a royal because if I HAD to be related to him by the gods I would NOT let him embarrass this family.
- At some event celebrating the unification of the countries, I was basically telling Alm the proper way to hold himself, but then I saw Rinea's parents being them shitty selves so I said "Ok Alm, first lesson in being royalty: throwing your royal weight around" and then I downed both my and his glasses of wine and went to go bully Rinea's parents, who were harassing her about some dumb shit like always.
- Marianne from Three Houses was my and Rinea's daughter
- We had to send her to Fódlan because when she was a child there was an assassination attempt on her; apparently me and Rinea having children before Alm and Celica meant we were trying to usurp the throne??
- Margrave Edmond was a distant relative of Rinea's, so that's who we wound up having take care of her
- We arranged visits as often as we could to see her; either myself and Rinea going to the Leicester Alliance or having Marianne come home to Valentia for a time

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justice timeline // emperor timeline

goro akechi (persona 5) arcanaswap (emperor) memories
- the arcanaswaps that i'm pretty sure about went like this:
-fool/wildcard: sumire (codename: rouge)
-chariot: ann
-magician: haru
-lovers: yusuke (codename: deva)
-emperor: akechi (me) (codename: spirit)
-priestess: akira
-hermit: mishima (codename: prophet)
-empress: futaba
-justice: makoto (codename: dove)
-moon: mona
- idk if any of the others changed, i didnt know them lmao
- also i cant really say for absolute certain those are the actual arcana assignments; im basing this on like who filled what role in reference to what the game says
- SO WHAT THAT ALL MEANS is basically everyones.. situations and problems were all switched around. ie i wasnt a detective (makoto was, i think it was some family thing for her), i was a Depressed Artist and madarames apprentice instead of yusuke, who was a model, etc etc
- everyones like. base personality was kinda the same? like i was much more similar, personality-wise, to post-reveal canon akechi than yusuke (meaning i was Very Depressed and Very much a Bitch)
- everyone's phantom thief... aesthetic got switched, but the base personas remained the same. i think the easiest way to describe it would be like. base silhouettes were the same as canon, but with the colours/aesthetic of the swapped arcana, if that makes sense (imagine my black mask getup with a fox coat of paint, basically)
- exception to this is hermit!yuuki, whos colorscheme was like a cream-to-pink gradient, and his person was more of a crystalline structure and his mask was a visor-type thing, and his thief outfit was a kind of like. evangelion-style plugsuit
- i think most if not all of the codenames were different? sumire was rouge, yusuke was deva (devil?) yuuki was prophet, i was spirit, makoto was dove. i don't remember ever calling haru anything other than haru, regardless of if we were in the metaverse or not
- speaking of haru, she was like. a ferret. who still used an axe, but because of being a ferret they were more like handheld hatchets than the greataxes canon haru uses.
- futaba was never adopted by sojiro, she was taken in by her moms shitty relatives i think
- sumire stayed with iwai, not sojiro, and iwai still had the airsoft shop. he was also taking care of yuuki in addition to kaoru. i don't feel comfortable talking about yuuki's whole situation beyond that without his permission lol
- morgana wasnt a phantom thief, iirc he was just some middle schooler that latched onto sumire lmao
- model yusuke was just as weird as artist yusuke, and we love him for that
- model yusuke was also my boyfriend. when he explicitly told me directly to my face that he wanted to date me i just remember immediately blurting out "WHY?"
- he absolutely loved gifting me little accessories, especially ones that matched ones he had.
- one time when he me and ann were hanging out ann was like "goro you should get your ears pierced" and i was like. "ok." and she was like "WAIT REALLY????" and i was like Yeah whatever so she basically immediately took me out to get my ears pierced and then yusuke gave me these little heart studs and i wore them literally all the time
- speaking of. i didnt. chase him (or anyone else) down to ask to model for me. i dont even remember how i met everyone else OOPS. i think i was straight up just spacing the fuck out and walked right into them. and then madarame came up in his car and was like "hahaha oh goro" and then i left with him.
- my persona was loki and when i awoke to him i told shadow madarame i was gonna rip his arms off and use his blood to paint his next precious masterpiece. ann brought this up constantly.
- ann always insisted she was my best friend. she was.
- madarame's treasure and reason for keeping me around were completely different; he somehow knew that my father was shido, and pushed my mom towards suicide because having a politicians bastard son under his thumb was good leverage.
- his treasure in the metaverse manifested as basically a title deed for my life, and in the real world it was my mother's suicide note. sumire read most of it before realizing what it was, and when she told me and handed it off i burned it without reading it.

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finn (fire emblem) memories
cw for mentions of canononical unrequited incestuous feelings- so for starters. i was definitely in love with quan. i never told him or anyone else, but a several people noticed i clearly had feelings for SOMEONE and just assumed it was ethlyn. i let them assume this because it was way safer than them knowing i was in love with her husband.
- i never got married. partially because i never really. got over. the last point.
- nanna was not my biological daughter; she was still very young when lachesis and i began to raise the her and leif together
- when she was learning to speak, she called me "papa" and i just looked to lachesis like "is this ok? is this ok? is this allowed?"
- lachesis just said something like "it's fine with me if she considers you her father, youve been more of a father to her than her real one anyway"
- i do not actually know who nanna's biological father was; lachesis never really wanted to talk about it. i do believe nanna and diarmuid did have the same father, though.
- the most lachesis ever said on the subject was that she was "in pain and lonely" after losing eldigan
- lachesis and i would bond over talking about our respective unrequited loves... we both fell for married men much too old for us that we had a preexisting relationship with that completely eliminated any chance of romance. we never judged one another over this because we both were already very well aware of how inappropriate our feelings were, and that even so we couldn't change them
- she once somewhat bitterly joked that we should just get married, since at least we understood each other better than anyone else ever would... and then genuinely lamented that she wished she'd fallen for someone like me instead, to which i responded i kind of wish i could've fallen for just. any woman.
- lachesis left to find diarmuid when leif and nanna were around 8-9, right after we came to tahra. she had been thinking about looking for him for a while, but at the time she started seriously considering leaving we didn't have steady shelter, so she wanted to stay with me and the children until we had a steady safe place to stay.
- skipping ahead a bit, when our army met up with seliph's, diarmuid did approach me privately to ask if i was his father (because, of course, nanna regarded me as her father). i explained that i wasn't, nor was i nanna's biological father
- it was absolutely crushing to find out lachesis not only wasn't with diarmuid, but never even found him in the first place.
- after the end of the war, once everything was settled, i left to find lachesis
- and i blessesly did, i think in phinora. it took maybe a year or two to find her
- together we went back to leonster, and on the way we kind of just agreed to.. be married?
- since there was no longer a war for everyone to focus on, lachesis being an unmarried princess and having two children would've been a scandal nobles would latch on to, so we just decided to act like we had been married the whole time
- (i certainly wasn't planning on ever getting married, and at least with lachesis she already knew i was gay and was a safe person to be with)
- we basically just gaslit nearly everyone into believing we had been married since before the battle of belhalla, and that Yes of course i'm diarmuid and nanna's father by blood, why wouldn't i be?
- (this was done after a long discussion and with consent from both diarmuid and nanna)

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holt hyde (monster high) memories
jj = jackson, mom j = mom jekyll, mom h = mom hyde
- ok so starting off i am very obviously canon divergent bc me and jj knew about each other basically since birth bc our parents were like "hey this might be important for them to know"
- i called jackson jj bc we mostly communicated thru text and notes bc we obviously couldnt talk face to face and jj is way quicker to write/type and i still in this life struggle to call him jackson bc. thats jj.
- i dont think my canon is necessarily preboot or reboot, but it definitely leans closer to reboot, wrt monsters like. being in hiding. which also meant i did not get to go out like. ever. on account of being blue and also my hair turning into fire sometimes.

lauriam (kingdom hearts) memories
- back in the old days of unions and whatnot, pre-dandelions these are what i remember:
-me, strelitzia, and elrena: anguis
-ephemer and skuld: vulpes
-ven: unicornis
-brain: leopardus
- in anguis we referred to invi as "lady invi" as opposed to the usual "master [name]." idk why that's just what she preferred
- strelitzia used pixie petal as her keyblade of choice, not starlight

terra (kingdom hearts) memories
- i lived in the land of departure and trained with master eraqus for as long as i could remember; aqua showed up when i was maybe 10?
- im skipping all the way ahead to post-kh3 bc this is like the only thing i can currently remember and actually put into words rn. ill come back and add more stuff later lol
- anyway. after everything, me ven and aqua would sleep together in the same room (if not bed) more often than not; we kept the lights on for aqua, and ven was usually in the middle bc he didn't ever actually want to go to sleep (understandably, but he still needs sleep). i liked having someone around so i could physically touch them and feel like, grounded, i guess? like Yes this is my body, aqua is holding my hand and i know this because i can feel it.

takumi (fire emblem) memories
- birthright route
- my corrin was male, and instead of using yato (or his dragonstone) he was pretty much his ninja alt from heroes (same outfit, used naginata)
- i was way closer to azura than the game says? she and sakura were the siblings i was closest to.
- (when she had her kids, they were also the nephew and niece i was closest to as well)
- azura was the one i went to to talk about my very confusing feelings for both of my retainers (spoiler: i was in love with both of them)
- couples were ryoma/kagero, azura/kaze, hinata/me/oboro, and i think corrin/kaden
- order of the birth of the royal siblings kids was shiro, shigure, hisame, selkie, midori, kiragi, kana
- i pointedly refused to have any kind of tests done to determine if hisame or kiragi were biologically mine or hinata's. if anyone tried to treat one of my kids like he was less important than his brother because of his blood i was gonna start using people as target practice